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PeARleen tAN 24 FeBuaRy
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Saturday, June 9
i realise i cant. in the end i still had to give in. in the end i still had to go through everything alone. in the end,everything's back to square one. some time ago:dad:im not capable of paying ur schools fees. my biz iznt dng well.since u work u pay ur own.work alrdy got $ pay ur own expenses. some time earlier:dad:we gng malaysia.ur uncle say wan go....(somewhere in malaysia).i wan to bring ur ah ma to e farm/plantation.maybe going fri sat sun.(suppose e same wk after youth camp) ME some tym ago:ok.as long as 1st wk shd be ok.but dun touch my second wk. ME:therefore i arrange some projects on e second wk.effective writng on mon... today:MUM:ur dad say we gng sat sun mon tues!!! which means its e second wk. i din want to give in.seriously.it has been always lyk tt.so last min.so i told them i cant.u want u go.i was so bend on keeping my stand.nw i realise hw weak i am. e worst was he said u big alrdy got wings can fly!u earn money alrdy can do whtever u want!in his eyes deres only money.since u so smart so independent don study la go work!(i told him i can dun go for youth camp.he will surely say paid $ alrdy. i told him i pay u back e money)becos he said i gt tym go church camp no tym for family.(but i told him not my 2nd wk.)I MADE THE EFFORT TO KEEP MYSELF FREE FOR U!!!! in the 1st place,u were the one who ask me to go out to work when i was 14!14!!!u said for experience.den i further,find different jobs.nw he ask me to quit school and go to work cos im good enough.noe nw to earn $!dun nid study!BUT I PAID FOR MY OWN SCHOOL FEES.I PAID FOR ALL MY EXPENDITURE.(except transportation cos my mum finds it hard for me to handle everything oso wants me to focus studying)i was really bend to keep my stand.in e end i change e dates for my project n accomodate.problem is nt i dun want to change.but y?i told him i cant so much earlier.since mother's day!n u ask me to quit sch!i paid my own fees u hav no rights to intefer!i only owe u 17 yrs for bringin me up.but i rather u nvr gave birth to me.independent huh..another way is u've got wings n can fly! i really cant stand it anymore n i really want to scold all sorts of words. even when i want to scream to make myself feel better i had to do it in e toilet.n scream w/o sound!!!y?YYYYYYY?????????!!!!!!!! everytime this happens,i promise i'll repay u more when i get stronger.watch n see.i wont be this weak in front of u forever.NEVER!watch your back 10:00 PM |
WishEs... eveRyoNe Safe & souNd gOod ResUltS PromiSinG FutuRe dReaM amBitiOn coMe tRue...
liNks...
Cheryl
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