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PeARleen tAN 24 FeBuaRy
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Sunday, March 18
it really hurts me!dad said jus nw tt he doesnt hav e ability to pay my poly sch fees.he said he calculated wrongly so nw some sort of HIS own finance problem!wth!FUCK YOU!sorry but i cant stand it!if u don hav e ability den tok so much for wht?!y 'forced' me to take biz related course?n den in e end i hav to pay for a course i din like studying frm e start?imayb i could even sign up w moe.so tt they subsidise my fees n i even gt allowance every month..aft studying still gt job..work for them a few yrs only ma..if u don hav e ability den wht for tok so much abt money abt being ur own boss n saying tt taking up digital media design doesnt giv u a good future?in e end?im solving everything myself.i hav to use my 17 yrs of savings to pay for a course i din wanted to take.if i were to compare u paid for sis fees!e least oso u paid e first sem fees! nxt thing tt hurt me is u MUM!i went to her to discuss my poly enrollment.yet she din even bother!she said i see myself can le ownself apply ownself settle can alrdy.n u noe wht?she was watching tv!she rather watch tv den to help me w my enrollment.i told her nid to pay thru cheques n stuff.she say go find dad.i told her to take a look in case i see wrong or stuff after all is my 1st tym doing such stuff.at least she helped sis w it b4..she noe more or less.y?wht for gave birth to me if this were to come?cant u at least show some concern?am i tt insignificant?yea..i hav a serious attitude prob.but hav u ever wonder y am i so rebellious n so competitive?y do i always fight to win in every situation?y is pride n rights so impt to me?hav u ever thought of it?i jus cant hold back my tears.or is it tt i hav wronged u agn?tt all this is my own doing? jus lyk saving me when im abt to die n when i recovered u stab my back n i left me alone to bled to death.can i hate u mum,dad?can i?Lord,can i?am i in e wrong this tym round too?can anyone ans me.. ?????????????????????????????? life nw seems no diff of me supportting myself..so frm nw on when i start paying n contributing every single cent to my own fees n none of u r paying a single cent,every sucess to come has nth to do w u.i'll repay those u paid for my secondary education n those b4 tt.nw im jus renting a roof above my head i'll repay e 16 yrs.other than tt nth else.i hav nth else to do w u both.MUM AND DAD!e wound is jus TOO deep.i believe in myself.i can support myself.if i cant i'll find ways.i'll tkae a loan make a deal w others.work n study.whatever e outcome is it has nth to do w u.its clean nw.i;ll take marketting n tts e last.! 10:31 PM |
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