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PeARleen tAN 24 FeBuaRy
LOvEs... My Saviour, My Lord, Jesus Eat,slp,play Drums,piano,guitar Bed,tigger,mickey Chicken rice Drama shows Christmas Ice skating Ultimate frisbee
hAtes... lOsiNg... beiNg UnderestiMateD...
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Monday, October 23
... havent been updating for quite some time but i guessed no one would even care or notice..the tag thing in my blog has gone mad..i shall nt bother it cos i dunno hw to do it or even watever la..i think i cant rmb my password too..but i did tried..let it be den..i was told to see with my heart n speak with my eyes..he told me a lot of things which made me thought a lot..until now..i still quite troubled..mayb i was wrong mayb i was ryte..with such a character lyk mine..i dun think im best to fit into the crowds..so i guess i will just let all of u go..mayb tis e life tt i belonged to n it cant be changed..i jus cant make myself sound ryte n jus can sound the way im feeling..but i think no one will even bother..mayb this is life..these r the things i hav to go thru..i seek God..He told me to walk by my heart n jus do my job..i dun hav to worry abt anything else but to jus do the simple things i hav leaving everything else to Him.."why me" may tis 2 words shdnt exist within me..somehow..in me i jus feel something..rather lonely tis few days..i jus dunno wht to say..He told me many things..n i jus dunno wht to do..but everytime i think thru it..i dunno y..i jus felt wanting to cry..tears jus drop dwn without fail..dunno y im crying too..rather scared too after hearing some things..dun bother trying to understand coz u can never understand y im scared..bt i guessed no one will even bother to care abt understanding..knowing whts happening..ha..mayb tts my fate..since young..mayb tis is wht was planned..i dun think ther's any more chance for me to escape..avoid..avoid lyk e way always did..its time i mus face it den.. im all alone again..who shall i trust..whom shall i tok to?its nt tt no one is available but hu is suitable..help me..realli..im feeling terrible now..im crying..im sad..im nuts!stop it pls..i cant hold on any longer if tis continues..God..help me thru these tests..show me the way out as u promised..but i jus think no one will even bother to read all this n even care..if u had..thank you v much..but it wont make a difference i guessed..buy me more tissues or gib me more towels den..haha..a joke for today..joke..huh..its a joke..com'on laugh..W 9:33 PM |
WishEs... eveRyoNe Safe & souNd gOod ResUltS PromiSinG FutuRe dReaM amBitiOn coMe tRue...
liNks...
Cheryl
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