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PeARleen tAN 24 FeBuaRy
LOvEs... My Saviour, My Lord, Jesus Eat,slp,play Drums,piano,guitar Bed,tigger,mickey Chicken rice Drama shows Christmas Ice skating Ultimate frisbee
hAtes... lOsiNg... beiNg UnderestiMateD...
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Friday, September 29
give me a chance to make up its been 2 days..though i noe i brought it upon myself..it was my mistake tt resulted in such a grave effect..i cant blame anyone else but myself..however..i onli ask for forgiveness and 1 more chance..even if its jus to make up..i really treasure those times..i guessed i didnt treasure it well enough..i might hav lost myself abit..but i reali wish to be back to wher it was before..i rather u tell mi den to keep me suspense..even if its bad news..i rather u'll be straight-forward than to beat round the bush..it doesnt matter if it hurts not..jus let mi know..i knew my mistake..i'll change but gib mi another chance..its only 1 grave mistake tt causes such an huge impact!kkz..lets tok abt something else..i flung my best sub..i flung my poa..i jus dunno wht on earth happened..i studied..i did..realli..its a big drop..i pass my paper 2 by jus 0.75 marks..how can it be possible?but y not?nothing is impossible in tis idiotic world..and so wht shd i do nxt?i flung my physics too..its my 3rd best sub..haiiz..everything jus seems to go astray..maybe because i neglected Him..so he's punishing me..but when im jus on my way back..u put another obstacle in front of me..when everything seems to get back to normal,it jus went wrong again..totally..in jus a blink of seconds..tears of joy turned tears of sorrow..i didnt hav time to react..i dunno wht to do at all..lyk ytd..my mind went blank again for another day..i reali tried..i did..real hard..but it jus seems so far away..i jus dun hav the strength to reach my hand out for it..and no one's dere to help me..u wanted me dead..so here i am..wht on earth hav i done tt cause all tis?!even for tt small mistake..is all tis necessary?!i rather,realli,wish i nvr exist..so tt i wont bring trouble to so many ppl..life wont be so miserable..wht else must i do?!u guys expect somthing from me but when i asked wht is it..the answer nvr came..i jus feel being used..y..y..y..stop pressurizing me!enough pls..i said it before..i give up!everything!totally!when am i suppse to flight and when am i suppose to fight?but for nw..i dun wanna fight..its tis time ryte?i give up..is wht i've done so useless?!its so cruel,so selfish,so hurting..i nvr expected it..is tis reali wht i deserve?esp for tt mistake i made?!cant i hav jus 1 more chance?1 more chance will do..it hurts.really hurts..i bet it'll leave a scar..so hurting so upset..sadition..frowness..teary..its dry.. 1:30 PM |
WishEs... eveRyoNe Safe & souNd gOod ResUltS PromiSinG FutuRe dReaM amBitiOn coMe tRue...
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Cheryl
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